Friday, August 30, 2019

It Is Okay To Rest

How do you take a rest without feeling like a failure? How do you rest without feeling like you are letting everyone down?









I am struggling so much right now. Honestly, I have been so depressed and overwhelmed by things. I just feel like everything is piling up on me and I cannot get a grasp on things.



I need to rest.





To me, the thought of taking a rest means that I have failed. I have not managed to do what I feel the Lord has called me to do and so, here I am with my tail between my legs, feeling like I just messed everything up. I feel like I have let you down.




However, with all of my on going health issues, I feel the need to take a step back and rest.





Lord Willing, I will continue to blog.





It is my hope, Lord willing, to continue to blog. I may only post something every other week, or if I really feel inspired, I will post once a week. I am going to be studying on rest and as I learn something, I will post it here.












That is my hope, anyway. Everything else, well, I just don't know. Pinterest in and of itself is overwhelming for me. I plan to go back to doing just the basic things. Meaning that I am only making one pinterest pin per blog post. Anything more than that is too time consuming and leads to my being overwhelmed.




Fb..... I will still pop in from time to time. I will not be sharing bible verse images on my fanpage, at least for the time being.




John 4:5-6 NIV 




So he came to a town in Samaria called Sychar, near the plot of ground Jacob had given to his son Joseph. Jacob’s well was there, and Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down by the well. It was about noon.




* Even Jesus rested * 




Prayer: 



Dear Father, 




Thank You for always being there. Thank You for allowing me time to rest. Please, Father, help me to find my rest in You and not to end up listening to the evil one as he tells me that I am a failure. I know that as You journeyed into Samaria, near the plot of ground Jacob gave to Joseph, You were tired. You needed to rest. You sat down by the well until You felt refreshed. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen.












Where Do You Put Your Hope?


A Time To Dance


Pain Is A 4 Letter Word 












How do you take a rest without feeling like a failure?
How do you rest without feeling like you are letting everyone down?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.
































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Friday, August 16, 2019

Where Do You Put Your Hope?

How do you manage through things when you feel overwhelmed? Where do you put your hope?









I am having a hard time. I am really struggling with depression. Everything just feels so overwhelming for me.




I have had a doctor's appointment each week for about 3 weeks now. It would be one thing if it were the same doctor every time, but that is not the case. Each time, it is a new doctor. This means that I have to go in to detail explaining things about my medical issues.



101 Questions





I just went to an appointment with a gastroenterologist. I answered 101 questions. Now, I have an appointment for a colonoscopy, but will also be getting an endoscopy done at the same time. Luckily, I will be put to sleep, so hopefully, I will not know a thing.




The next step will be to look at my gallbladder.








Normal Life Struggles 





All of that is enough to make me feel overwhelmed, but you throw in normal life struggles and, well.




The past couple of weeks, I have been trying to do a little more cleaning, around the house. I can only afford to apply about 10 minutes of my time before I need to take a break. Honestly, that is not an exaggeration.




Now, after a couple of weeks, I guess I had hoped to start receiving help in keeping things clean. So, when I attempt to clean a new area, I worry how long it will be before it is a mess again.




Since there are three of us living here, when I do not receive more help with things, I start to feel taken for granted, overlooked, like I do not matter.




Depression is such a hard thing to live with. Most days, it takes everything I have within me to pull myself out of bed in the mornings. Once I am up, it takes everything within me to keep from going back to bed.



Focus On The Blessings





I am trying hard to find positive things to focus on. Blessings are being revealed every day. I only need to stop and look for them.




Psalm 39:7 NIV 




“But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.




-- other translations --




Psalm 39:7 NIRV 




"Lord, what can I look forward to now? You are the only hope I have.




Psalm 39:7 NLT 




And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in you.










Prayer: 




Dear Father, 




When things are dark and overwhelming, Lord, where do I place my hope? My only hope is in You ( Psalm 39:7 ). Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen.
















Pain Is A 4 Letter Word


Bible Reading Plan, Pain


Find The Joy
















How do you manage through things when you feel overwhelmed?
Where do you put your hope?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.
































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Thursday, August 8, 2019

A Time To Dance

What is your experience with going to the doctor? Do you feel a sense of dread?









Oh the joy of having to answer 100 questions for a new doctor. Do you have any allergies to any medication that we need to know about? Do you have a history of X ? Is there a history of X in your family?




One question that I was asked was about my energy levels. I give a little chuckle every time a doctor asks me about my energy levels. I mean, come on, just because you are an ENT doctor and I am here about my sleep study, does not mean that I instantly have energy. But you are adorable.



My energy tanks very quickly. 




So, I have to explain that I have a pituitary tumor which has messed up everything. The hormones that are usually produced by the pituitary gland are not being produced by mine. As a result, I have secondary adrenal insufficiency. I do not have a lot of energy any more; no matter how well this machine says I am sleeping. And my energy tanks very quickly.




Luckily, he knew exactly what I was talking about. He asked me questions about my condition that shows an understanding on his part. I am very impressed with him. Sadly, there just are not that many in the medical field (be it doctor, nurse, tech person) that know anything about Addison's Disease.










I did learn something from this visit.  





I was diagnosed with moderate sleep apnea. My oxygen, on the other hand, was more of a concern. He said it was dropping into the 60% range. That is very scary to think about.




I want to encourage you to read through Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 NIV.




Here are the verses that really speak to me, at this time.




Ecclesiastes 3:1,4 NIV 



There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,









Prayer: 



Dear Father, 



Please help me to remember that there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven. Help me to remember that there is a time to weep, but there is also a time to laugh. Help me to remember that there is a time to mourn the loss of what could have been, but that there is also a time to dance and to give you praise. In Jesus' name, Amen. 









Pain Is A 4 Letter Word


Bible Reading Plan, Pain


Find The Joy


You Will Give Me Rest













What is your experience with going to the doctor?
Do you feel a sense of dread?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.

































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