Thursday, March 28, 2019

To The One Who Feels Like Trash

Have there been moments in your life that have made you feel unimportant, unwanted, like a piece of trash? You do matter. This is the last post of the series looking into my past.









I see you. Yes, I know that there have been times in your past that you have felt like trash being tossed out.




The one time that I am thinking of, right now, is the time when you stepped in to help your sister. Sadly enough, she had been tossed out as well and being the big sister, you wanted to help.



Show Her Love 




Oh, I can just imagine the thoughts running through your mind as you stepped in. You wanted to wrap your arms around your sister and show her love. The kind of love that only comes from knowing Jesus.




However, to step in, as you did, cost you as well. Taking that step to reach out to your sister and show her love, caused a rift. Your dad got so mad at you.




He called you, as soon as he found out. He spewed out every hurtful thing that he could think of to say to you. What did you do? You kept reminding him that your sister was still part of the family and that you were not going to turn your back on her. After he yelled a little more, you reminded him to watch his blood pressure to which he got very upset. He told you that he never wanted to see you or talk to you again. He then hung up on you.




I know that had to be so hard on you. I am sure that it hurt you a lot.




This was not the first time that your dad had cut you from the family, but it would be the last.



Pick Up The Pieces





I know that it took you a long time to pick up the pieces after that. You struggled, for quite some time with depression. You spent a lot of time crying, feeling like you just do not matter.









What hurt the most was thinking about how everything just went on as normal. Your dad had tossed you aside, but nothing else changed. Seeing pictures of your mom would start the waterworks without fail. You would sit there wondering, "Doesn't she miss me at all?" Yet, everything looks normal.




Honestly, I think it was an illusion. If you observed close enough, you could see things for what that really were. Your mom only said things that she heard your dad say. It was like if by repeating him word by word, it must be okay because he had said it to her.




Then, the news came that your mom was sick. Cancer. You were allowed to go visit with her.




When she passed, you had a peace that could have only come from Jesus.




Forgiveness. It isn't an easy thing to do, is it? However, with the Lord's strength all things are possible.




You clung to the Lord, who helped you through that time. He also helped you to be able to forgive your dad. And you have peace.



Ephesians 4:31-32 NIV 



Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.








Let's Pray: 



Dear Father, 



Please help me to get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Father, please forgive me for the times that I hold on to all of those hurts instead of letting them go. I pray that you will help me to be kind and compassionate to others, forgiving them, just as in Christ you have forgiven me. In Jesus' name, Amen.












To The One Who Feels Unwanted


A Letter To Myself Age 19


A Letter To Myself Age 10


A Letter To Myself As A Baby












Have there been moments in your life that have made you feel unimportant, unwanted, like a piece of trash?
You do matter.
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.


























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Thursday, March 21, 2019

To The One Who Feels Unwanted

Has something happened that has caused you to feel unwanted? Do you feel unspecial and like you do not matter?











To the one who feels unwanted.




Yes, I see you. Something happened in your past that has caused you to feel unwanted, unspecial, like you do not matter.




It can be hard to hear.




Those words.




"You were not a wanted child." 





Oh, the sting you must have felt. The words may have even knocked the breath right out of you.





Your mom looked you in the face as she told you these things about your dad. He did not want you. She told you that he tried to get her to have an abortion. When she wouldn't do that, they got married. Shortly after they were married, he threw her down in hopes that she would miscarry.




I know that must have been so hard for you to hear. I can just picture you sitting there, pressing your feelings down, but only being concerned for your mom.





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As the years continued to pass, however, you were able to see things a lot easier. Things just made sense for you. They were not easy, they were not fair, but they made sense.



Walking On Eggshells 




Your dad seemed to compare you to others and make you feel bad because you were not like them. He compared you to your brother. He compared you to your cousins. You were never able to live up to them or to the image that your dad held of them.




It never took much to upset your dad, did it? You never knew, for certain, where you stood with him. If he got mad, he had a knack of cutting people from his life. And you had to learn to walk on eggshells.




How many times, over the years did he cut you out? How many times did he make you feel like a piece of trash to be thrown away?




I want to tell you that I am so proud of you. Even as you are going through these hard times, because of him, you clung to the Lord. You found your peace in Him. Even when your mom got sick and passed away. You had peace through it all.




It is during hard times, like that, that we need the Lord more than anything. I know, however, that when you face depression, you have a tendency to pull away. I am so proud of you for finding your connection to the Lord, during this time.




When hard times hit you, in the future, and they surely will, look back on this and remember how the Lord was with you and how He brought you through. He is always there.




Ephesians 2:10 



For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.



Prayer: 



For I am God's masterpiece. He has created me anew in Christ Jesus, so I can do the things he planned for me long ago.











Psalms 27:10 



Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me.




Prayer: 



Though I have been forsaken by my father and mother, the Lord will receive me.




Ephesians 3:18-19 




may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,




Prayer: 



Help me to have the power, together with all Your people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is Your love for me.




Psalms 139:14 




I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.



Prayer: 



I praise You, Father, because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.



















A Letter To Myself Age 19


A Letter To Myself Age 10


A Letter To Myself As A Baby













Has something happened that has caused you to feel unwanted?
Do you feel unspecial and like you do not matter?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.



























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Friday, March 15, 2019

A Letter To Myself Age 19

Have you ever struggled with feeling disowned? Take comfort in knowing that nothing will ever be able to separate you from the love of the Father.











Dearest 19 Year Old,





Congratulations! You have graduated from high school. You are now working at T.J.Maxx where you meet your future husband.




You now have a driver's license and attend a community college. Oh, how I wish you could study the things that interest you. However, in order to keep the peace, you do what your dad wants.



Over The Years 




Over the years, you have seen a lot. Your mom has had several nervous breakdowns. You have even seen her with cuts on her wrists :(.




There is one time in particular that stands out, one that I wish I could block you from having to witness.




This event took place around the time that you were 11. Your sister has been born by now and your bedroom is in the basement.




Your mom and dad are having a conversation. He is telling her what to do and she doesn't like it. So, she stands up to him. She tells him that she is not his daughter and doesn't appreciate being treated like one. Oh boy, did he get mad at her. He gets so mad that he pushes her down the basement steps.




You panic. You want to be able to do.... something, but you freeze.




After that, she is back in the mental hospital again.




You have seen some hard things over the years. However, these hard things help to shape you into the person that you become. They also help you to cling more and more to the Lord for strength.











Here you are at 19. I wish that this point forward would go smoothly for you, but I cannot tell you that.



Your "Earthly" Dad Disowns You




You have a disagreement with your dad and you decide to stand up for yourself. He beats you and slams you against the wall, holding you by your neck. Luckily, that is the last time he ever lays a hand on you.




Several months later, your future husband sneaks you out of the house, in the middle of the night. Yes, I know, it isn't good to live with someone or to have a sexual relationship out of wedlock. You will be judged. Your dad will disown you, call you all types of things, in attempt to make himself feel better.




I want to tell you that things going forward are easy, but since I cannot, I will remind you that the Father loves you very much. Your dad may not be an easy man. He may disown you, but nothing will ever be able to separate you from the love of the Father.




Romans 8:37-39 NIV 




No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.











Let's Pray: 



Dear Father,  



Thank You for always being with me. I know that no matter how dark things may seem, You are always there. Father, I take comfort in knowing that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate me from the love that You have for me through Christ Jesus my Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen.












A Letter To Myself Age 10


A Letter To Myself As A Baby


My Testimony











Have you ever struggled with feeling disowned?
Do you feel like you do not matter?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.




























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Thursday, March 14, 2019

Devotional: God's Masterpiece

Do you listen to the lies of this world? Do you believe that you are a mistake or a failure? Try listening to the Voice of Truth.













For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.




Ephesians 2:10 NLT 





A young girl stares hard at her reflection in the mirror. "Am I really a mistake? Am I really a failure at everything that I do?"




Don't Listen To The Lies






In this world, it is so easy to not only listen to the lies that we are told, but to also believe them. Especially when the words being spoken to us are coming from a loved one.





The Lord is patiently waiting for each of us to turn our hurt over to Him. If we allow it, He will shine His light into our darkness and give us hope to carry on.





What struggles did you face as a child? Everybody has sin to face in their story. How do you respond to the pain?





I learned, as a young girl, not to show emotion. Whenever I cried or showed that I was angry, I was made fun of or made to feel guilty. My coping mechanism was to press things down inside.









You Are God's Masterpiece 





I just picture God's image appearing in the mirror before that young girl. He simply says, "No my child, you are my masterpiece!."




Do you listen to the lies that are being spoken over your life? Do you believe that they are true?




Humor me a moment, I want to share some of the lyrics of Voice Of Truth with you.




Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns




Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth





The Lord is there with you. He wants desperately for you to listen to the Voice of Truth. He wants you to remember that while you face your giants, He is singing over you. You are His masterpiece and that is the truth.










Let's Pray: 




Dear Father,  




Whenever the lies start to creep in, please help me to remember that I am Your masterpiece. You have created me anew in Christ Jesus, so that I can do the good things that You planned for me long ago. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen.





Monday, March 11, 2019

Handwriting The Scriptures

Do you struggle with reading the Bible? Have you considered taking the time to handwrite the scriptures?









I, personally, have a hard time with sticking to a set reading guideline. I also have a very hard time comprehending and understanding what exactly is being said. I often find myself, scratching my head, saying, "huh. Lord what does this mean? It is flying right over my head. So, how exactly am I supposed to apply this to my life?"



Did you know that there are verses in the Bible about writing? Nope, neither did I, until I started to look deeper in to this.



Deuteronomy 17:18-20 NIV 



When he takes the throne of his kingdom, he is to write for himself on a scroll a copy of this law, taken from that of the Levitical priests. It is to be with him, and he is to read it all the days of his life so that he may learn to revere the Lord his God and follow carefully all the words of this law and these decrees and not consider himself better than his fellow Israelites and turn from the law to the right or to the left. Then he and his descendants will reign a long time over his kingdom in Israel.



Jeremiah 30:2 NIV 



“This is what the Lord , the God of Israel, says: ‘Write in a book all the words I have spoken to you."



Revelations 2:15 NIV 



He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”







Isaiah 30:8 NIV 




Go now, write it on a tablet for them, inscribe it on a scroll, that for the days to come it may be an everlasting witness.




What Is It?




So you may be asking, what exactly is handwriting the scriptures and how do you get started?



Handwriting scriptures is actually handwriting the scriptures. You pick a book in the Bible to read, reflect over and, well, write. Yes, the whole book. Word for word.



When you slow down enough to write out the scriptures, it helps to imprint them on your heart. What you might have trouble understanding while you read, becomes a little easier to understand when you write it out. It will also help you with your memorization skills.




How To Start




To get started in doing this, you are more than welcome to join me as I write through the Bible.



There are no strict guidelines to doing this. I am currently writing through Esther and you can join me. If you like to SOAP, then you SOAP what speaks to you. Actually, you are free to use whatever study method you like. You can even just write the verses and let that be it.



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Do you struggle with reading the Bible?
Have you considered taking the time to handwrite the scriptures?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.

































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Friday, March 8, 2019

A Letter To Myself Age 10

Do you believe that you have a purpose? What path has God taken you through to get you where you are today? This is part two of a series into my story.










Dearest 10 Year Old,




Oh, how I would love to wrap my arms around you and tell you that this is going to be a great year for you.




I want to let you know that you are going to overhear a conversation. This conversation takes place between your dad and some woman on the phone.




You will be in the kitchen preparing for bed when you hear your dad calling someone "honey" and "sweetheart". You also hear him make plans with her for the next day.



Dads Are People, Not Perfect





I wish that I could say that this is the first time that you have truly seen your dad as "not perfect", but that is not the case.




I'm sorry, but you will not sleep well that night. You play everything over in your mind and wonder if you should tell your mom what you have heard.




You Take A Deep Breath 





The next morning, as your mom is helping you with your hair, you decide that she has a right to know what you heard. You take a deep breath and you tell her.




That decision will plague you for a very long time.









Your mom confronts your dad about what you told her. He was, in fact, having an affair. Your mom doesn't handle things well at all.




After some time goes by, it appears as though things are okay. Your mom takes you and your brother shopping for the new school year. She loads up two buggies full of stuff. If you or your brother see something that you want, she let's you get it. Two buggies full!




That is her first nervous breakdown. She has to be hospitalized.




Following this event, when/if something is said as to why your mom had the nervous breakdown (the affair), your dad starts telling you that you are crazy. If you contradict him at all, on anything, he tells you that you are crazy.



Time To Let Your Let Shine





I want to tell you that your 10th year is a good one, but I can't. I do want to let you know that your decision, the one you worried over for a very long time, is for the best. I believe you did the right thing. It was time to shine some light on things that were being done in darkness.




Things will be different from this point forward. However, this provides some growing experience for you. Why do I say this? Because it is through all of this that you start clinging on to Lord.




You will struggle with depression, starting at this age, but you also see the Lord with you. He is there. He gives you strength each day. He helps you to have a deep love and compassion for your mom.










1 Peter 5:6-11 NIV 




Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.




Let's Pray: 




Dear Father,  




Here I am, Father. I humble myself under Your mighty hand, so that You may lift me up when the time is right. Please help me to cast all of my anxieties upon You and to remember that You care about me. Father, I know that after I have suffered a little while, You will personally restore me and make me strong, firm and steadfast. I am holding on to that promise. In Jesus' name, Amen.













A Letter To Myself As A Baby


My Testimony


A Letter To My Husband












Do you believe that you have a purpose?
What path has God taken you through to get you where you are today?
I challenge you to share your story.
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it,  I will be happy to help carry your load.



























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Thursday, March 7, 2019

Devotional: Stitched With Love

Do you struggle with feeling like you are a mistake? Do you think that God might have messed up when He created you?













For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.




Psalm 139:13 NIV 





Look at her. She taught herself how to crochet. Look at the smile on her face as she works one single crochet stitch after another. Every stitch is filled with so much of her love.




I can remember, before the pains became unbearable in my hands, sitting for hours on end crocheting. My favorite thing was to crochet something for someone that I love.



One Stitch At A Time 





Now imagine the love, the patience that the Lord puts in to creating each one of us. This verse says that He knits us together. He could have spoken us into being, but He took the time to intimately form us in our mother's womb.











Your life is not a mistake or something that happened by chance. It is the result of a Father who loves you so much.




Think about this :




You are His masterpiece.




You bring joy to His heart.












Let's Pray: 




Dear Father,   





Thank You for loving me so much that you took the time to knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen. 



Friday, March 1, 2019

A Letter To Myself As A Baby

Do you believe that you matter? Do you know that the Lord knows everything there is about you? He has a plan for your life. This is part one of a series into my story.










Sweet Little Baby,




Oh no. Please don't cry.




Yes, I know that your road getting here has not been an easy one.




Your dad tried to have you aborted. However, your mom would not hear of it.




Shortly after your mom and dad were married, he got mad and threw her down. He wanted to cause her to miscarry.



The Lord Is Watching Over You 




During your birth, you and your mom, almost died. Stand strong little one, the Lord is watching over you.




Oh precious child, how sweet and innocent you are. I want you to have every possibility in life.




I want to tell you that your life will be an easy one, but I cannot do that.











I will tell you that you are loved. Yes, yes, your mom loves you to bits and pieces. However, the one that I am referring to is the Lord.




You are such a tiny little creature right now and all ready the Lord is wrapping you in His arms. He has protected you in so many ways, already.




You Grow Up With A Desire For Babies 





The Lord is setting up the path for you to follow. I believe that because of the things you have been through so far, it leads you to have a deep desire for babies.




You grow up believing that babies are a precious gift from God because He never makes a mistake. Although, to be honest, it does take you a while to grasp that no mistakes are ever made.




By the age of 10, you know that you want to do something with babies when you grow up. Please do not allow anyone to hinder your path.




You will have 3 children of your own that you love with all of your heart. You also spend several years working in child care taking care of newborns. You will tend to a lot of babies. You know that is your calling. Babies are your heart.



The Road Is Hard, But The Lord Is There 





Please do not cry. I know the life ahead of you seems scary, but you have the Lord with you every step of the way. He loves and cares for you so much.











At that time Mary got ready and hurried to a town in the hill country of Judea, where she entered Zechariah’s home and greeted Elizabeth. When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit. In a loud voice she exclaimed: “Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the child you will bear! But why am I so favored, that the mother of my Lord should come to me? As soon as the sound of your greeting reached my ears, the baby in my womb leaped for joy. Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”



Luke 1:39-45 NIV 




Let's Pray:




Dear Father, 




Thank You for Jesus. Thank You for using Mary, an unwed woman, who had not known a man, to give birth to the Messiah. Thank You for the miracle that took place when Elizabeth's unborn child leaped for joy when she heard Mary's greeting. The first one to celebrate the soon to be birth of the Messiah was an unborn child. Thank You. You have a purpose for each and every one of us. I praise You so much. In Jesus' name, Amen.












My Testimony


A Letter To My Husband


About Me












Do you believe that you matter?
Do you know that the Lord knows everything there is about you?
He has a plan for your life.
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.

























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Sarah, The Mother Of Nations

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